[Jehan doesn't respond for a few moments. He doesn't want to tell Combeferre. It was a foolish idea and he knew it going in. He doesn't even remember why he did it--to be a hero, maybe. Either way, it was stupid.

But...maybe Combeferre is right. Writing hasn't help the nightmares. Perhaps talking will. He looks down]

I...I've lied to you all. I let you believe the Guard took me from the barricade and that isn't true. I...I went over, to sabotage them, and was captured. It was a fool's mission and I knew it, but I did it anyway.