You are significantly underestimating what I can understand.

[Dry. (There are things that he doesn't, but this? Oh, he understands way too well.) Also, now he has calmed down somewhat, a pattern emerges to his mind's eye, in this conversation.]

Another thing that it is - and you should think over this - is that all the reasons for your doing this? Are about you. You need the chance, you felt safest at school, you are going to fight for the position, you have skills, you made mistakes, you couldn't find anything else.

You probably think you have changed. But you might have to work harder on it.