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--oh, shoot. Just how do I work this contraption? I knew I should've asked for specific directions... Is it a phone? Or... something... huh?
[ The feed opens up to one confused looking Avatar with a hand paused mid-scratch at the side of her head. Blink blink. She straightens and attempts to clear her throat a bit, but even doing that does nothing to remove the slightly confused frown on her face. ]
So... Keeliai. [ how does i start conversation to people she isn't even sure she might be speaking to ] It's... a nice looking place, I guess. I have so many questions, but I think I should start off with...
What next? I mean, if anyone's got any helpful suggestions on how to deal with this place, I'd be all for it. Really!
[ Pause. ]
Uh-- oh, right! The name's Korra. It's nice to meet... whoever'll be answering this message. I hope. Ugh.
[ She's making a fool of herself, she knows it. ]
[ The feed opens up to one confused looking Avatar with a hand paused mid-scratch at the side of her head. Blink blink. She straightens and attempts to clear her throat a bit, but even doing that does nothing to remove the slightly confused frown on her face. ]
So... Keeliai. [ how does i start conversation to people she isn't even sure she might be speaking to ] It's... a nice looking place, I guess. I have so many questions, but I think I should start off with...
What next? I mean, if anyone's got any helpful suggestions on how to deal with this place, I'd be all for it. Really!
[ Pause. ]
Uh-- oh, right! The name's Korra. It's nice to meet... whoever'll be answering this message. I hope. Ugh.
[ She's making a fool of herself, she knows it. ]
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[She bites her lip.]
Korra, I--
[she really doesn't want to say this.]
I know you and he kissed that night during the tournament. I'm not... angry. Well. At Mako, a little. For lying to me. But... I want you to be happy, too. And if he makes you happy then... I'm okay with that.
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Because... Because, dammit, she's happy. She's actually happy about this, but the knowledge itself quickly sours in her chest. Yes, she'd be lying if she said she wasn't happy that she got Mako, but at the same time, she'd be lying even further to say she wished to be with Mako anyway despite obviously knowing he was with Asami at the time.
Well played, Korra.
Her hands switch between clenching into fists and releasing. ]
... But you should be angry at me. At least even more than Mako. I started it, even knowing he was with you and I still-- [ I was jealous and selfish and I know I still am. ] A-And this might not seem sincere, knowing all of this, but... please believe me when I say I want you to be happy, too, Asami. You're--
[ ... oh spirits, all those words from just now. Friends? ]
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Mako knew what he was doing and he chose to do it anyway. You... you didn't really know me then, you didn't have any reason to care about my feelings. He did. That's why I'm mad at him.
[She sort of... crosses her arms over her abdomen and curls her fingers in the fabric just above her hipbones. This conversation has started making her miserable and she doesn't want to look at Korra right this moment.]
Mako wasn't responsible for my happiness, Korra. No one is. I won't say it didn't hurt me, but I'll be okay. It's not the end of the world, right?
[Not like her mother being brutally murdered when she was a child or her dad turning out to be an Equalist or anything.]
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It's really hard to rationalize things for Korra sometimes. Instinct and impulse are her thing, but something like this? Hsha, no wonder she failed at things that mattered most.
She's silent for quite a while before Korra shakes her head. No, it's not the end of the world, but-- ]
... But that doesn't change that it did hurt. [ She tries to look up directly at Asami, but her expression is less fierce and determined but more... searching? ] And for that... it won't stop me for being sorry, but I still wanna try. Again, and differently this time.
You're a good friend to me, Asami. More than I deserve, in fact, so, please...