VOICE.

[barebacking]

An odd question, I am sure, but I wonder...

I thought of the ghosts and the waters, and the idea that death could be just around the corner. That is that those of us that are just about to slip into that darkness may one day wake up to be choking on our own blood.

Forgive me for such a ... unfortunate image, but my point is ... how many of you have someone who you are close to? How many can say that you have met someone who makes your life worth it all, even if death may be so close? Even if this may all just be a dream?

This need not be romantic, I suppose, but friendship as well.

After all, sometimes it is friendship that can save a life, too, right?

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[barebacking]

Not to worry.

I was not insulted at all. Honestly, there are far worse ways which I have been spoken to in the past.

[solo_patria]

[Enjolras thinks a bit of how people who were slightly different may be addressed at home, how lucky he was to perfectly avoid that and he slowly nods.]

Ah good then. I would hate to have placed anyone in that position. I take it things are not as easy in your world as you've implied.

[barebacking]

I'm afraid not.

It's such ugly business to talk about in a first meeting... though, we have talked about so much. It would be all right to share, I think. [ He closes his eyes before speaking. What he says is a lie, but one that he has told himself for so long that it feels like the truth. Because he hates the thought of anyone surviving and never coming to look for him. Hates the thought only cowards survived and living in caves. ]

In my world, I am the last of my kind. It carries a certain burden with it ... but most of it comes from humans who hate me for what I am. [ And this is true. Humans do hate the fact he is a serial killer and torturer. It doesn't bring a rosy flush of excitement to their face as it does his. ]

I was frightened of humans here when I first came, but ... it seems like I need not. For that, I am glad. It's nice to take in a breath without fear... though, it is a sensation I am not used to, I will admit that much.

[solo_patria]

[Enjolras finds himself not able to say much, simply nodding at the appropriate parts. He's found that resentment can cause so much cruelty in the world, whether it is right or not. And from the version he is hearing, which of course, has nothing of the serial killing, torturing parts, his sympathies are certainly being pinged here.]

I suppose humans, some of them, will always hate what they do not know, or what is foreign to them. That's not to say that it is right, of course. Hate never is. But it does seem to be a...quirk in our nature, I am afraid. One I would hope we overcome.

I do not think that there are many here you need to be afraid of, no. I breathe a little easier myself here if that is any help. I was unconcerned enough about the police and others in Paris who would oppose our cause, but I also lived with a certain...caution. It is strange though, the knowledge I need not be quite as careful just to live. It takes some adjusting, I suppose.

[barebacking]

It is an unfortunate trait, but I believe it may something that we all share. Still, I am comforted by your words. I've spoke to others and they say the same... that I should only be wary and not frightened. There is a difference and I'm walking that line.

Is it odd ... I spoke so fondly of this place before, and one of those reasons is the strangeness of it all. The strangeness of no one knowing you or having ... problems with what you are. It makes the air clearer, and one's future bright. At least, until we wake from this dream.

[solo_patria]

And a decent enough respite at least, from what will happen when some of us do wake up. Or well, the lack of waking. Still, as a respite from death, it is rather an interesting place, and I have come to know so many, and to learn what I could not in life from them.

I can see where one would consider it some sort of respite, really.

[barebacking]

Such sad talk I have brought...

It seems like you should go find your lover's arms to help you to forget about the uncertain future where we may all return to ashes.

[solo_patria]

Not so sad as all of that. Merely, well, an acceptance, I suppose, and a chance to have some happiness before it comes. I can hardly deny those are some good things here.

[And then there is the tiniest eyedart.]

Or that his arms do not sound wonderful just now.

[barebacking]

I cannot deny that, either.

I really cannot say enough how happy I am that you have one another. How odd that must be, though, coming from someone who barely knows the two of you. But it comes from one who loves someone and wishes that sort of happiness for everyone, just as you do for those here.

[solo_patria]

I...that is a little odd perhaps, but it is appreciated, certainly. I think that he would say the same. Thank you.

[barebacking]

You are most welcome.