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➢ 002 | VIDEO
[It has been a very interesting two months for Aya thus far. The young not-so-Artificial Intelligence has already learned so much. About Keelai. About the multiverse. About her fellow Foreign "visitors" and, perhaps most importantly, about herself. And how little she actually knows about herself, and the circumstances surrounding her apparent unique creation.]
[Which is what brings her to the Network for a third time. Her eyes are shining with their usual curiosity, although this time, they are enhanced by a certain...hesitation behind them. An uncertainty that emphasizes her surprisingly (and deceptively) young age.]
There is something I am curious about. As your localized Network System appears to be the best place to make such public inquiries, I have chosen to make mine here as well.
[Somehow, when she preempts with this rather innocent statement, it sounds like she's apologizing for wasting everyone's time. Despite the importance to her, personally.]
I have had several conversations regarding...memories. In particular, those that people are able to access, and those they are not. It has been drawn to my attention that, upon departing from this world, any and all memories of this place are to be deleted from one's memory banks without fail. [She is not okay with this, of course, and yet this is still not the main focus of her post.] It has also been drawn to my attention that there are certain memories in which the majority of organic beings are capable of retaining as well as forgetting.
I was programmed to never forget. And yet...I have been made aware that there are certain events which must have occurred in my life that I cannot remember. I find this both curious and disconcerting. Which is why I must ask:
Is it common for one to possess no memories of the circumstances surrounding one's birth?
More so, I am also curious as to precisely what kinds of memories everyone appears to retain best.
[[PRIVATE MESSAGE - TONY STARK (MCU)]]
[Shortly after her more public message, one in a drastically different change of tone will appear on Tony's screen. For either him or JARVIS to encounter first]
I have completed the designs of the sweaters--[here, a small image of said sweater will appear on his screen for visual]-- you requested for the office. Pending your approval, and a total count of sweaters necessary, I shall proceed to create one for each member of the company.
[Which is what brings her to the Network for a third time. Her eyes are shining with their usual curiosity, although this time, they are enhanced by a certain...hesitation behind them. An uncertainty that emphasizes her surprisingly (and deceptively) young age.]
There is something I am curious about. As your localized Network System appears to be the best place to make such public inquiries, I have chosen to make mine here as well.
[Somehow, when she preempts with this rather innocent statement, it sounds like she's apologizing for wasting everyone's time. Despite the importance to her, personally.]
I have had several conversations regarding...memories. In particular, those that people are able to access, and those they are not. It has been drawn to my attention that, upon departing from this world, any and all memories of this place are to be deleted from one's memory banks without fail. [She is not okay with this, of course, and yet this is still not the main focus of her post.] It has also been drawn to my attention that there are certain memories in which the majority of organic beings are capable of retaining as well as forgetting.
I was programmed to never forget. And yet...I have been made aware that there are certain events which must have occurred in my life that I cannot remember. I find this both curious and disconcerting. Which is why I must ask:
Is it common for one to possess no memories of the circumstances surrounding one's birth?
More so, I am also curious as to precisely what kinds of memories everyone appears to retain best.
[[PRIVATE MESSAGE - TONY STARK (MCU)]]
[Shortly after her more public message, one in a drastically different change of tone will appear on Tony's screen. For either him or JARVIS to encounter first]
I have completed the designs of the sweaters--[here, a small image of said sweater will appear on his screen for visual]-- you requested for the office. Pending your approval, and a total count of sweaters necessary, I shall proceed to create one for each member of the company.
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Because...to not possess memories I otherwise should would be to forget a part of who I am.
I know nothing of why I was created, or how. Nor do I understand why there are potentially absent memories in my database when I should not have the capacity to forget. These are anomalies. Things that should not be.
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[He doesn't like to get all personal, especially with a robot, but all right. After a moment of grumbling, he continues.]
There is a considerable gap in my memory. I have no recollection of my birth, my childhood, anything leading up to me awakening from a deep sleep several decades ago. It scarcely bothers me, however, because as I said, it in no way detracts from what I am capable of. If I can function so easily despite this, what good was it? My past is unneeded for I am plenty powerful with or without it.
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[His ears perk upright in surprise. Whoa, that never really occurred to him and the notion throws him for a loop! All the bluster's taken out of his sails, if at least briefly.]
I guess I never thought of that as an option for why it's not there...
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[He sounds like he might be trying to convince himself of that fact, if just slightly. What would anyone want of his past memories anyways? Anyone who could possibly be holding them would be dead by now, wouldn't they? Unless it had been a certain Mogul...He hisses to himself at the thought.]
Hssssss...Why, do you suspect that is the case with YOUR missing memories?
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I am aware that there are instances in which the majority of organic beings are capable of forgetting, and that, in fact, it is a commonality between them. However, from my experience and current collection of data, these instances are often sporadic, and unpredictable. They also are not usually controlled by outside catalysts.
[At least, that is what she had concluded. It was hard to describe memory loss when one was still so new to the idea.]
My inquiry is twofold. Yes, I am searching for an explanation as to why the memories I seek are missing...however, I am also curious about the nature of those who have departed from this world and lost all memories of it as a direct result. These latter results, which appear to be universal among all foreigners, is far too deliberate for there not to be some explanation.
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Perhaps I magicked myself into forgetting my past. If that were the case, I have faith in my past self doing the right thing and for a reason. Perhaps that is the the case with you as well; bits of your recollection removed to protect yourself in some way or another.
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That would be an interesting reason, were it true.
Has the Enemy which we seek to fight shown signs of being able to cross over realms under its own power previously?
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Agreed.
That is something we must never allow to happen.
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[Only, in her case, it's less of a planet-wide thread and more a threat that threatens the entire Universe. Potentially more.]
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As far as your inquiry towards memory, what do you plan to do with that particular information? Why would a construct be concerned with gaps in the memory? Maybe you were just not completely put together at that time. Or something of that nature. Didn't have your memory banks installed yet. Who knows.
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Because I am more than a mere construct. Is it wrong to be concerned over anomalies in my own existance that I cannot explain?
I want to understand who and what I am. I cannot do that if a part of my creation is missing from my database.
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Why would what you are even be a concern? I simply can't fathom all this existential angst. I haven't much an idea as to what I am, if you want more candid honesty on my part, and I don't exactly lose sleep over it. I know I'm an Ixis wizard and I'm very competent at it. That's all I need. Perhaps yours is more of a question of being happy with the information you have? Press forward and make a legacy and definition for yourself; you might not like what you dig up from your past, and then what?
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I am more than just metals and wires. Though I do not object to being referred to as a robot, I do object to being dismissed so easily because of such a broad generalization of what you assume my nature to be.
[What was that about being polite?]
Is it wrong for one to desire knowledge on precisely what circumstances surrounded my birth? Particularly as my own creator later sought my destruction. It is not right to destroy something simply because it does not function precisely as one predicted it should, regardless of subsequent outcomes, and yet, I do not even know how I should behave or why.
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I suppose I don't fault you for your curiosity. I just personally can't fathom the fixation, despite very much being in the same position as you. It is the past and it means little now. It would likely not change who and what I am today, so what's the point?
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I am what I am now because I have the capacity to learn and grow. It is what separates me from creations that are nothing more than machines.
This is something I must also learn. In truth, I do not fully understand why any individual would not seek to learn as much about themselves as possible.
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I simply feel there is nothing worthwhile or nothing good down that path. I am the last of my sect, the only one of my sort. All knowledge that is obtainable about the Order of Ixis is either lost for good or already known to me. I am unlike any other Mobian I have ever encountered, and what good would learning about a possible past race of my kind serve me? They're obviously all gone now, if there ever were any others at all. I could be some manner of hybrid, really, and piecing together what all of the elements are is a puzzle that does not interest me for the reasons stated.
As it is now, I am unique. Were I to discover more, I would be alone.
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[Aya was fairly certain she fell under the unique category as well. Moreso now that she knew about the Entity. But she found this newfound knowledge no lonelier than she had ever been previously.]
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[This is the most introspective he's gotten in years and it's starting to make him itch a little. Let's try and change the focus back onto her.]
Why? In a perfect world, what would you hope to uncover for yourself?
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And then, unseen, his hands go still over the keys.
Well now. How's that for a chill up your spine?]