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Sure there are things.

[Not dying would be the top of his list, just because. But.]

What brought that about? Maybe that's where you can start?

What kinds of things?

[Ignoring the latter part for now, because even if she has an idea of what made her start thinking about all this, she doesn't know if the things she'd do are... right, for what she wants to know.]

I'm... one of the people who aren't going to go back, whatever happens here. That makes all the time back home too short, like I haven't done enough things. Enough good things. Enough fun things.

What's good and fun, for you? Is it anything you can do here?

Yes. I wouldn't know where to begin.

Pick the first one you think of.

It was out of my control, but I would have liked to have enjoyed my childhood. If just for another day longer when it was still within my reach.

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What part of it?

The quiet parts; it all sounds abstruse how I put it, but the memories where nothing was happening. The parts that felt static, and at peace are perhaps the ones you want to replicate the most.

Am I making any sense?

Yes.

[She has always loved the moments at the Agency between assignments - breaking up fights in the dorms, or comforting the other cyborgs when they wake up crying and aren't sure why. Singing under the stars during the meteor shower, or helping Claes with her garden.

It wouldn't be so bad, living a life that was only the quiet things.]

Is there something in particular? Something you remember.

[ On the other end there's a ghost of a smile beneath the lacquered wood of his mask. ]

More like someone. I had a younger brother, but that is a longer story than I would care to share in length. Might I ask the same of you?

Of course not! I did everything I wanted to when I was a kid! I jumped off the Tokyo Tower, and was the most notorious fighter in all of the East Side.

What about things other than fighting?

Don't we all?

If you want to start, maybe you can think about anything you might've missed.

But the things I've missed I'm not sure how to explain. Mostly I want to know what 'normal' sorts of things people miss.

I don't know if I'll be any help. I've never been fond of normal.

What are you fond of?

Right now?

I could be fond of an orange right now. I've been craving some.

[Okay that earns a laugh of surprise THAT HE CANNOT HEAR but oh well.]

I don't think they have oranges here. Fruit pretty similar, but no oranges.

Hence, my sudden increased fondness for them. Is there anything like that which you wish you're missing?

...Doesn't need to be fruit, by the way. [ because you know CLEARING THAT UP WAS KEY ]

[What is she missing. What is she missing other than Hilshire and ready ammunition.]

Some people. The smell of my friend's garden. The cold, too. It was winter. Hot cocoa and wine. Not at the same time.

I don't think I'm much of a wine fan, but cocoa would be lovely.

All of that sounds lovely, in fact. Maybe we can attempt to make some of it happen here?

[no texting why.]

Maybe go to the movies more often. I'm kind of bad at a lot of pop culture.

[Because of reasons]

Me too. [You can't see it Annabeth but she's smiling.] The films I've seen are mostly old or foreign art films, and we don't have televisions.

My dad's favorite movie is Roman Holiday. We didn't get along very well until recently, so we've taken to watching movies he likes together. Most of them are romantic comedies from the 40s and 50s.

Uh, well...sorta. But I mean, I'm not really an adult yet, so... [Shrug.]

What do you like doing now?

Uh, well...mostly hanging out with friends, I guess. Going to the beach...camping trips...so long as weird, dangerous crap isn't happening, those are always fun.

[ ... ]

I would have appreciated what I had.

Which was what?

[What am sensitivity.]

[ ..........

it's okay that's what hiding behind text is for. but there's definitely a noticeable pause before the respond comes through. ]

A normal life. People I could trust.

Well. I'm not... that old, and most of the things I wish I'd done weren't... that long ago, but...

[ She pauses, lips pressed together. ] There are things I wish I'd done before I didn't have the chance anymore, I guess. Things I wish I'd said to people, or... yeah.

Like what? Not the personal things. You don't have to tell me. I mean... the simple things, or things that might be stupid, I guess.

I wish I'd danced more. The last... few years, it seemed like I always had something more important to do, but I think I'd have been a lot happier if I made time for something like that.

I wish I'd've asked for help more when I needed it. Done normal things with my friends, like... I don't know, go out to a movie, or have lunch somewhere... [ Instead of, you know, hanging out on rooftops and beating people up together. That's not exactly normal. ]

I was a quiet kid. Kept to myself, never really had friends, and I didn't really mind at the time, but now-

I do wish I'd have tried harder to make friends. Learned how to connect with people that way.

There are other things, but those are... more personal, and situational. I doubt they'd apply to whatever your list is for.

I'm not sure if you make friends or if friends happen to you, sometimes.

True. But I think you have to make yourself open to it. Available. I've never been very good at that.

I honestly don't know. I think, in order to have done anything different, I'd have had to be someone else entirely. A different person, in a different place and time.

It's not something I spend a lot of time thinking about.

What's the list for?

Me either. I mean it wasn't. I've been

[Switching to voice because it's easier than sitting here trying to figure out what to write down.]

I never used to think about it. It didn't matter. I wasn't normal, I wouldn't ever be, and I'm -- [Going to die in a year or two anyway.] But I made a promise.

[Slight aggravation.] I'm just not sure how to keep it.

Hmm. Can I ask what the promise was, exactly?

You don't have to tell me, but I doubt you'll do yourself or the person you promised much good trying to be something you already know you're not. [ Yes, she realizes the irony of her, of all people, saying this. She means on a personal level, underneath all the masks and conditioning and training... whatever there is left underneath, in the end. ]

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