tushanshu | ☁ 002 denying a crisis [video]

[Donnie flicks the video on in the late morning. He's wearing pajamas while a cafe is visible in the background. He frowns.]

Is there a doctor or a therapist here? I'm almost out of my medication and sometimes I see things when I'm not on them and I think it would be better if I could get more. I don't really know where to look to get the same thing I had back home because I don't know a lot about the pills except what they look like and what they're supposed to do and I don't even know if that's true because Dr Thurman could have been lying and it's not like my dad would know. He couldn't even remember her name.

I guess I don't really have to take the same thing. I sleepwalk a lot if I'm not taking them though and I wake up in weird places and that wasn't such a big deal in Middlesex because I knew where everything was and most people knew about my problem so they usually just woke me up and let me go home, but I don't think they'll be that nice about it here because it seems like they don't really like people that aren't Kedan.

[He sighs a little.]

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If it's better, maybe. If it sucks, I'd say change it up.

That's not how it works. Changing it affects everything. Like my surviving is the reason Gretchen died. I mean, maybe.. I don't know. If I hadn't flooded the school, I never would have started going with Gretchen and I probably wouldn't have burned down that pedophile's house either. Those were things that needed to happen to save someone else. You can't just choose your own future. You can't decide that your better future is worth more than someone else's, especially if you have the ability to see what they can't. That's cheating on a monumental scale.

Edited 2013-03-10 03:33 (UTC)

[There's plenty of good reasoning in his explanation to support why he wouldn't do it, but Ororo's got more arguments up her sleeve. Less now a consideration to what she'd do and more a curiosity about how someone with this kind of power could keep it in check. The closest real life example she's got is Charles Xavier and he doesn't exactly honour the bounds of privacy or independent will.]

Why's that? You're the one that can see it all and make the calls? It's got to be tempting to keep things from screwing you so that you can make sure life goes the best way possible for the biggest crew of people.

I'm not the one making the calls. It's.. I don't know. It's time that's making the calls. God. I don't know, but it's not me. Something else out there is deciding what we're all supposed to do and just because I can see it doesn't mean I should mess with it.

I might be able to see what's about to happen--[He begins gesturing with his words again.]--or even what's going to happen awhile from now, but I can't see everything or know everything and so changing anything would be risking something else backfiring. Frank looked out for me sometimes, but I wouldn't prevent my death if it meant Gretchen and Frank dying. It's not the way it's supposed to be.

You always have this sound of a moral code?

[Because it seems like either a gold standard from this end or downright terror about what could happen if he tried.]

It's not- It's not morality! It's-- Have you been listening to anything that I've said?

[He throws his hands up in exasperation.]

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