Jean (Jehan) Prouvaire (
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tushanshu2013-03-23 12:16 am
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Verse 03 -- Video
[It is not a happy Jean Prouvaire who greets the world today.
Those who don't know Jehan might be able to tell that something's off. He almost looks sick, but not quite, and his clothes are in disarray. Those who do know Jehan?
They can tell right away that something is terribly wrong with the Romantic poet. He hasn't been out of his house in a few days--he hasn't left his house much at all since a few days before the snow day, actually, but in the last few days he's been a total recluse--and hasn't been seen on the network since Courfeyrac's last post. He's not looking at the feed like he normally does, his hands seem to be shaking a little, and he just seems off. Sleep has clearly been eluding the poet, too.
It takes a few minutes before he speaks. When he does, his voice is lacking his usual emotion. Still gentle, Jehan could never be anything but, but it's a bit flat]
I...I was wondering if someone...
[He bites his lip before trying again]
A-a flute. Does anyone know where I might--
[Another pause, this one longer. Jehan closes his eyes and shakes his head, reaching up to turn the feed off]
No, never mind.
[Just before he cuts the feed, the sounds of him starting to cry can be heard]
Those who don't know Jehan might be able to tell that something's off. He almost looks sick, but not quite, and his clothes are in disarray. Those who do know Jehan?
They can tell right away that something is terribly wrong with the Romantic poet. He hasn't been out of his house in a few days--he hasn't left his house much at all since a few days before the snow day, actually, but in the last few days he's been a total recluse--and hasn't been seen on the network since Courfeyrac's last post. He's not looking at the feed like he normally does, his hands seem to be shaking a little, and he just seems off. Sleep has clearly been eluding the poet, too.
It takes a few minutes before he speaks. When he does, his voice is lacking his usual emotion. Still gentle, Jehan could never be anything but, but it's a bit flat]
I...I was wondering if someone...
[He bites his lip before trying again]
A-a flute. Does anyone know where I might--
[Another pause, this one longer. Jehan closes his eyes and shakes his head, reaching up to turn the feed off]
No, never mind.
[Just before he cuts the feed, the sounds of him starting to cry can be heard]
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But you, our brave poète -- you are no less the hero to me. You knew full well what you did and why you did it; I do not begrudge you in the slightest for not wishing to tell us. None of us will, I should wager. You are our brother.
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Jehan doesn't realize he's said all this out loud, either.]
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You are brave because you fought with us, died with us, fought for our cause and the future and never gave up on your beliefs; not even when faced with a firing squad. You are not a coward, you could never be one, petit. You are simply human, as we all are, and every human has their failings. You are our valiant brother, and you always shall be.
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I...how is it that I am the one to break, Etienne? That--I do not want the rest of you to feel this lost, of course. But this feels like a...a punishment.
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Perhaps it is --because you are apt to feeling more than the rest of us. I cannot say. But you are --you have depths that neither I nor Enjolras can reach. Both you and Courfeyrac do, you are our heart and our strength. That may have something to do with it.
Do not think that you are the only one who feels lost, however. We all do, I am certain of it.
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But if he can feel this, then surely the others can. It would be selfish to assume they can't.]
I am a fool...forgive me for hiding this, mon frère. I should not have.
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You are forgiven, petit. [And a beat, before he gives Jehan a tight hug.] Be well, we shall have you back to your old self again as soon as may be.
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You will--please, tell me when you are having trouble, my friend. I want to help you as you have helped and hopefully will continue to help me. I do not want any of you to feel this way.
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[A small smile.] In this place, we may become closer than ever, I think. True brothers.
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[Jehan pulls away slightly to start drying his eyes before he starts crying again]
Ah, your shirt...
[Is terrible tearstained on one shoulder]
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Petit, it has seen much worse, I assure you. Do not worry yourself.
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[Wet]
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....Shall I leave you, or would you like help cleaning up?
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One more thing, if I may. I am certain Enjolras has seen this by now--would you please tell him that I'd like to speak with him tomorrow? I...he deserves to know.
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