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tushanshu2013-04-20 05:17 pm
lostundercover) wrote in tushanshu2013-04-20 05:17 pm
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13A05 [AUDIO]
If anyone found anything of mine while on land, I'd appreciate if you could hand it over.
[He's a little grumpy.]
[60% Encryption (shared): Cobb, Ariadne, Arthur, Eames]
I figure we should stop fuckin' around and talk about why it is that you're looking for a sedative, interested in dreams, and maybe what it is you people actually do for a living.
[60% Encryption (private): Ariadne]
You don't have to explain. I get why you played me.
[60% Encryption: Jack]
You remember what I said, about if something happens to me.
[ooc: Inception peeps, feel free to threadjack or create new threads to privately talk to each other in this post!]
[He's a little grumpy.]
[60% Encryption (shared): Cobb, Ariadne, Arthur, Eames]
I figure we should stop fuckin' around and talk about why it is that you're looking for a sedative, interested in dreams, and maybe what it is you people actually do for a living.
[60% Encryption (private): Ariadne]
You don't have to explain. I get why you played me.
[60% Encryption: Jack]
You remember what I said, about if something happens to me.
[ooc: Inception peeps, feel free to threadjack or create new threads to privately talk to each other in this post!]
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To be honest, I don’t know what he has been saying to you. [ she easily admitted as she looked back up at Costigan, letting her expression turn almost apologetic. ] He hasn't exactly been talking to the rest of us like he should.
[ which part of her understood, given all that he was and had been going through. But even with all of that, it still had her extremely worried about him, and everything else that came with it. ]
And what exactly do you mean: That group? [ she asked, arching her brow in slight curiosity, and shifting her weight from one leg to the other. ] I work with them, yes.
Do I run and tell them everything? No – of course not.
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What do you mean 'like he should?' What should he be telling you? [It's an important answer in his mind, about what their relationship is, the four of them. But he also knows that you need to give a little to get some back.]
The four of you are all from the same place and work together. Cobb was asking on the network about drugs that would leave inner ear function, something to do with lucid dreaming. They said it was a military training program, but the way Eames described it and the things Cobb has said before.. it sounds like a weapon. It sounds like you people find a way to..
[He throws his hands up in the air, trailing off. He has more to the theory than that, but he's already laid his cards on the table too much and something about his theory screams 'weapon,' the kind of thing he really doesn't want to become the victim of if it involves magic like it seems to.]
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It's not a weapon, I can tell you that much. [ she quietly admits as she looks up at him, taking a slow breath as she did. ] It really is a military program. Architects just got involved to help design the dreams that they use.
[ there was no point in lying about any of that, not when she wanted to so hard to trust this man and all that he was saying to her. And she could only shrug her shoulder faintly because of it. ]
And… [ she sighed, frowning at her thoughts. ] Cobb’s been through a lot recently with the program. [ which really was only half of it, but it at least was something she felt might help explain Cobb without betraying the mans trust. ] so I think the dreams are starting to get to him.
[ she paused at that, looking up at him almost unsure of what to say for a moment. ]
I promise you that we have no intentions of hurting anyone. But given what we deal with, there are a few things that we are trying to understand, that's all.
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If it's for training, then why are you looking for it here? What are you trying to understand?
[He waited for her response, unmoving, giving her all the time she needed to think and respond. The undercover had no intention of rushing her, but he was also going to push as much as she would allow him to in an effort to figure out what was going on. And he was going to watch her, try to ensure that she wasn't lying to him, try to convince himself that his interests in her weren't entirely off base.]
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What if this [ a beat, looking back up at him as a small frown started to tug at the corner of her mouth. ] What if this isn't real? And we’re just stuck in some dream?
[ she stopped a that, her brow arching in a faint curiosity as she waited for Costigan to reply. Simply know that how she approached the rest of it from here on out, really depended on how he reacted/responded to it all.
(no pressure, Costigan) ]
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My dreams aren't usually this vivid and it doesn't explain a lot of things. [The reply came as if he was thinking it out for himself. Even though it didn't seem to fit, it would explain some things and if someone was much more familiar with dreaming, it would make even more sense.]
If it is a dream, then why are you looking for a drug to make you unconscious and how, exactly, do you plan to wake up?
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[ which only has her, yet again, sighing as she shakes her head at her thoughts, letting her hand start to unconsciously rub at the back of her neck. ]
So we need those drugs in order for us to find the answers to this place.
[ it’s vague, she knows that. but she really does just want to take her time with him – let him work out things how he needs. And let him ask what he thinks is of importance to him. ]
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[The Bostonian uncrossed his arms and dropped his hands to his sides. He took the couple steps necessary to close much of the distance between them, allowing him to look down at her and judge her expression more clearly.]
Tell me honestly that you never used me. [It was half whispered, given their proximity now.]
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At his change of proximity, she can’t help but sigh, looking up at him somewhat unsure and maybe a bit apologetically. ]
They told me to stay away from you, to be honest. [ well, cobb did anyway. ] I thought you might be trying to use us – me – and I wanted to know if that was true. [ she quietly admitted with a shrug of her shoulder. ] But I didn't use you. Everything I've said to you was because I wanted to know.
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Without saying anything, he lifts one hand to rest in the crook between her neck and the shoulder she just shrugged, resting his thumb lightly along her jaw. Then he leans forward - not quickly, but without hesitation, trying to kiss her.
The heightened emotions of the situation, the loneliness, because he knows it's a bad idea. There are a dozen reasons why Costigan can't help but try to create intimacy in this moment, but he pushes them all aside and hopes that he hasn't made a complete misjudgment.]
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We can't do this. [ she quietly admitted as she took a slow breath. Knowing full well, that there was so many reasons she couldn't let herself get too attached to anyone. ]
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Why? [He asked honestly. It wasn't demanding or pleading in any way; rather, it was as if he was asking why she liked a particular kind of weather, interested but almost detached.]
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Because... [ she started only to pause and consider her words ] There are too many questions I don't have answered yet - things that I can't let myself fall into.
[ which wasn't exactly the best answer, she knew that. so after a moment, she sighed, frowning slightly at her thoughts as she quietly admitted. ]
What if none of this is real, and we're dreaming, and I let myself get lost in this place?
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I think we're done here, unless there's anything you'd like to add. [A beat.] I believe you, that you weren't using me, but I think we both have our own loyalties right now.