tushanshu | 003 - early September

[Raine looks serious when she starts the video feed. This isn't unusual, per se, but she also looks like she might have been ill recently. Either that or she needs a lot more sleep than she's getting.]

If you were wounded in the recent altercation, even if you were healed at the time, please check in with one of the Foreigner healers at the hospital, just to be sure. Whatever toxin was on those weapons is a nasty piece of work; I thought I'd purged it from my system almost immediately, but still suffered some not insignificant illness. [If anyone's familiar with how quickly she can heal most things -- very -- this may be slightly concerning.] Given who exactly was most probably at the root of the attacks, this is not the time for stoicism, especially if you were exposed to a greater dose.

If you were hurt, and especially if you notice anything out of the ordinary, let someone know. If the hospital bothers you, or if you have privacy concerns, you can come to me directly. Even if it turns out to be nothing, it's far better to err on the side of caution when it comes to the enemy. There are few enough of us that it's foolish to take needless risks.

[Raine is far, far too familiar with how hiding potentially serious injury or illness goes. She's not even sure there will be any aftereffects, but this is something with which they can't afford to take any chances as far as she's concerned. And given that the majority of Foreigners she's met seem to have a similar sort of stubborn independence... well, she's not even sure she'll get a response, but it's worth trying.]

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[[ooc; this should be only a few days after the big fight. timeline slightly fuzzy but definitely not after the fifth of September or so.]]

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I will try not to, though it IS a bit difficult to keep me stilled, though no, the walk would do me some good. Air might help to settle my mood, I think. And yes, I assume it is fairly uncharacteristic.

Mine leans toward aggression towards things that I can change, not normal everyday ones, when they come. .

[She nods acknowledgment to the first; well, he would know himself best. That aside, she's already reaching for writing materials to note what he's saying.]

Interesting that you make that distinction. Can you give me examples, for the sake of context?

Of course. That is the sort of thing that does need some explaining. I...at home I was an insurrectionist against a governmental structure which very badly ached for reform. That sort of anger, the aggression that it fueled in me was rather helpful, if that makes sense.

It...spurred me onward in many ways, through two attempts at Revolution, and some means of restoring France to a People's Republic. When there was something to make me angry, and there were many things, there was also a way to use that, for the common good. Even here, when I was not certain that the Empress could be trusted, I joined some others in attempting a palace raid, and...

[Enjolras is pausing now, frowning rather deeply.]

That raid was rather following on the heels of being invited, rather forcibly to the realm that it thrived in and being in its presence. It was not until that was over that I managed to find help for it, but even that was, I will not say dealt with. I've still no idea how I might come to that, but...it was an anger that could be dealt with by fighting, and by transferring it onto our enemy.

Now, it seems like...rather ordinary things set that to rise up. Unmarked places in my book, delays for things I usually accept...It feels like much more of a presence, somehow.

[His phrasing is a little strange in places, but his narrative is cohesive enough and she appreciates the background detail.]

Yes, that makes sense. I believe I understand you.

[She thinks for a moment, pen tapping absently.] So you're familiar with justified anger constructively applied, but this is markedly different in that it stems from less significant causes and doesn't have a functional outlet. [That sounds about of a piece with what little else she's been able to gather. She doesn't like the symptoms much, but at least it's more or less consistent.] It's promising that you've been able to separate those so readily.

[It's odd that the translations still seem to manage that sort of thing at times, really. At any rate, Enjolras is nodding at her words.]

Yes, rather. It is...almost as though realizing how stupid some things are make it a bit worse, too. Which should hardly make any sense, I know.

[He doesn't like the symptoms so much either. There is a sort of fear that comes over Enjolras when it comes to these things actually. Mostly for the fact that there are some people, and a turtle, who he does not want to scare away.]

I do not think that it is so bad as to make me violent. Not...I recognize the urges and I try to remove myself from those situations or to do a bit of...someone was teaching me some meditation, once. It helps a little as a way to cope,or finding other things to do, at times.

[Granted, these sorts of things are those that usually require some kind of furious action on his part, cleaning or writing, or finding games of a more physical nature to play with Taraja, or reorganizing the books that he and Combeferre shared, even putting up some (rather awkward) shelves with the materials from the Barricade That Wasnt, to install some sense of order in the place, and really, in his life.]

I am lucky it has not gone that far, but I still am rather perplexed as to how to work on fixing this. I worry.

[He's better off than some people, at least. That's something of a relief.]

I believe I do take your meaning, however. I'm glad you've been able to cope so far.

Let me know when you plan to come in. I don't know yet how to help this, but I'm going to do everything I can to find a solution. If you don't mind letting me look you over, that's a place to start.

[She doesn't know if it will help or not, but anything is better than nothing at this point.]

[Enjolras is rather glad his wounds will eventually heal in time, or at least, he's reasonably sure they will, given the size of them and the fact he is already still alive after the experience. That's something, anyway. He's nodding at the words there.]

I appreciate that you care. I can be by directly and wait until you are free. I have some people who I ought to explain the details to, in case they are short staffed without me. Barring that, I have a book that I've been reading too.

[Nor is Enjolras, but he also knows that this injury is about everyone who fought and was wounded there, and every contribution can help someone in future, at least in terms of data. Combeferre had been rather insistent about data always being important too, for what it did. It's grown on him a little, he guesses.]

[If his wounds aren't completely healed, she can and will fix that for him. The toxin she probably can't, but she's surely going to try.]

All right. I'll meet you there in a little while, then.

[She shouldn't have to tell him to be careful. He seems to have that much common sense at least.]

[That would probably help a lot. His shoulder has been fairly stiff, under the makeshift first aid wraps and other attempts made at doctoring himself, in a fairly awkward place. He wishes Combeferre or, at least, Joly were here to help with that, but if magic is involved, fixing it would be rather hard for his friends.]

Thank you. That would help quite a bit.

[He'll be careful, yes. No dangerous things to throw himself into until later,after all.]

[She gives him a little nod.] It's no trouble. Until then.

[And she reaches to shut the console off, thoughts already somewhere else.]

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