tushanshu | Verse 04 -- Video

[Compared to Jehan's last post a week or so ago, he looks much better. He's slept, he's eaten, and he's up for trying to interact with people again. He smiles a bit shyly when the feed clicks on, blushing as he usually is]

I wanted to apologize if my...behavior last month upset anyone. I was not feeling well and wasn't thinking clearly. I hope that anyone I upset or worried can forgive me. Ah...and I wanted to thank everyone who offered assistance. I am--it was greatly appreciated.

[Understatement of the centuries. This is followed by some private messages, all of which are absurdly easy to crack. The guy's from 1832. He's just happy he can make the private.]

[Original Amis sans Marius]

[The smile's gone, and Jehan is serious]

I wanted to...to remind everyone that should you feel as I did last month I am here to listen or talk or simply keep you company. I know what happens when you shut yourself away, now. I do not want that to happen to any of you.

[Dorian Gray]

[Shyly:]

Is it too late to accept your offer of that flute, Dorian?

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No, it doesn't, but you do. Poetry is and will always be the inability to keep your opinions to yourself mixed with the fear of coming off as someone of modest intelligence. I, for example, will talk until I am blue in the face, but I give not a damn what others think of me.

You can't say the same.

You, too, give a damn. It is part of human nature to worry what others may think.

[Also: "Be easy" ring any bells?]

Then let me be unhuman. Let me be Dionysus, and escape this human need to impress with a bottle of mother nature's finest--oh wait, it seems I can't.

[Jehan still has some stashed away, but he's not saying that. That's for emergencies]

Perhaps, if you truly wish to wash away your humanity, you might find something to smoke instead of drink?

Yes, oh yes why did I not think of that? Tobacco or opium will surely be easier to get my hands on during a rationing than alcohol! You, Jean Prouvaire, are brilliant.

[How unamused is Grantaire? Entirely.]

It was just a suggestion, Grantaire. This is obviously not easy for you and I was attempting to help.

Making stupid suggestions is not helping it's trying. [And maybe he didn't mean to snap, but his temper is short, his patience shorter.]

I did not think it was a stupid suggestion, Grantaire. It is the only one I had.

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Being the only one you have doesn't make it less stupid and pointless.

No idea is stupid, Grantaire.

Any idea is potentially stupid, get your head out of your ass. Don't start with this nonsense, that any thought out of your head is worth something, you know as well as I that it's untrue.

If ideas were worth nothing, people would not be censored.

[Urge to find R and deck him rising...]

You're in a sour mood, Grantaire. Perhaps you should sleep.

[An eye roll, and a suck of his teeth.] I have slept enough, slept as if I had one foot back in the grave.

Read, then. I've some books in French you might enjoy. Well, one--Les Tragiques--and a book of poems Temeraire wrote out for me.

Pah, leave me to my wallowing and cease your attempts to push poetry onto me. Les Tragiques I have enough of in life, merci.

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