Radio (Two days after the possession attempt)

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I'm sorry...I didn't mean for this to happen. I didn't even know it could.

[She sounds exhausted.]

And I know that several of you are hurting as a result of what happened when I tried to possess Tu Vishan...

[The fact that the other foreigners had seen the vision was distressing, she didn't like being used for anything, even if it was by a benevolent being. It was still just too reminiscent of Malicant.]

But the turtle is alive.

[Her voice is quieter now.]

And that vision...I believe it came from him.

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[It took all her willpower to not collapse to the floor in tears. Exhaustion, shame, the pain of losing Wan. No one was blaming her and she couldn't take it, couldn't understand. And the nightmares...losing everyone she cared about, losing her soul, the Kedan who were dead, but not dead, Malicant, the hatchlings. If those things only existed in her dreams, then perhaps she could cope, but they were all too real.]

Just...don't leave me.

[She didn't know what to do anymore, all she could do was stand there and cry.]

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[Anton nods to himself and shifts to the bed, drawing his long legs up and holding out his arms.]

Come here, A leanbh.

[A cuddler? Not Anton. But, every now and then, perhaps.]

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[There was no hesitation, her need for comfort overruling any foolish sense of pride as she crawled onto the bed and settled in his arms, tears still streaming down her cheeks. It was safe to cry here, safe to be weak while he held her.

There were those that believed in true names, and that they granted power. The name she had given him didn't grant any special powers, it was merely a symbol of what he was to her, someone precious. But he only one she had left, and his lack of reassurance that he wouldn't leave was not lost on her. She knew it wasn't something he could promise, and so all she could do was focus on the here and now. Ill as he was, the fact that Anton could still care for others so strongly was simply one more thing she admired him for, loved him for. If only she could be as strong as he was.]