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[disfavored]

There was a notice a few days ago from Miss Ayala about the possibility of starting a school. I haven't worked out all of the details yet but it looks like I'll be acting as Headmaster.

If you're going to be involved in the school in any way, I'd like if we could become acquainted. If we haven't been introduced yet, my name is Tarrlok.

Thank you for your time, and I do hope that this project is a success. [Because kids need something to keep them out of trouble.]

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[disfavored]

I will fight for my position. It is the first that's come along that's actually made use of my skillset, and I'm sick of not contributing anything. If you insist on trying to have me ousted, I won't make it easy.

The children are not in danger. I had someone else's ideals forced upon me as a child and it ultimately ruined my life. I wouldn't do that to someone else.

And my brother has been hanging up posters advertising his chi-blocking classes in a clinic - a place where the hurt and desperate may very well end up - and he will almost definitely be incorporating his views into those lessons. I'm sorry, you're delusional if you think he isn't in a position to affect anyone.

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[demon_brat]

Useful to whom? For what?

[These are questions that do matter, however simplistic.]

And that hospital is run by two people who have the ability to stop whatever he may attempt with barely more than a thought. If they have him there, they will know exactly what he does and when, and can counteract immediately.

That is a security setup, not one of trust.

[Not entirely of trust, at least.]

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[disfavored]

Administrative skills. Organizational skills. Leadership skills. There haven't been many opportunities yet to make use of those here unless you're a military type, which I am not. And I'm not capable of doing what my brother does at the clinic, either, so that's out.

[He realizes that being antagonistic probably isn't winning him any points, so he decides to turn it down a bit.]

All I'm asking for is a chance to prove myself. If I do wrong, I won't object to being removed from my position. I do object to being barred from the opportunity due to a past most of you didn't even witness.

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[demon_brat]

If you do wrong, it will be too late for some.

Find your chance where adults are involved. Children should not be experimented on. Or with.

[The other reason Damian was not interested in the school in the first place - it is probably a very, very bad idea to put him in daily contact with them. He is, in fact, not trying to deny Tarrlok the opportunity to prove himself better than he has been. He merely doesn't trust him more than he trusts himself, to move past the damage inside.]

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[disfavored]

I'm not experimenting with anyone. I'm merely trying to make a positive impact while I still can, and this is the first opportunity for me to do so that has come up.

I'm taking the position. I'm sorry.

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[demon_brat]

You could have started a business. That would have put your organizational, people, and leadership skills to use. But, no, you had to wait until children were involved.

You are not in any way or at all sorry.

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[disfavored]

What business could I have started, exactly? I'm not an inventor. I don't have a product or a service to sell. It'd be a well-organized business but other than that it wouldn't have much going for it.

I never asked for your personal vote of confidence, and you're free to think I'm lying if you want. I won't even be teaching any of these kids and the teachers are free to do as they please. If you're going to do nothing but berate me and make the ridiculous accusation that I intend to hurt these children, I'm going to have to end this conversation here.

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[demon_brat]

That is where your leadership skills might have been useful. There are always people with ideas. Organizational skills is what more than a few of them lack to make those ideas reality - find one or more of them. Employ them.

There are always ways to become useful. Your choice of venue is telling, as well.

A headmaster has power. You say now that the teachers are free to do as they please, but what happens when what they please is not what you please? They become free to do it somewhere else?

Why a school?

[Yeah, sorry, Damian's going to ignore the 'end of conversation' part.]

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[disfavored]

Well, I haven't met any of those people rich in ideas but lacking in organizational skill, and I'm sick of waiting. If I do become some sort of tyrannical headmaster, the teachers will leave and start another school. There's no power to be had if there are no teachers and no students.

Why a school? Because I liked school, and I want to see it succeed. Apparently that's strange, but it was the first place I felt accepted in, and the first time anyone saw me as someone with potential instead of just the untalented younger sibling. If you don't want to go to the school, don't, I'm sure the students who are actually excited about the possibility would appreciate it.

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[demon_brat]

They are children. Somebody like you can always find ways to keep them, if you put your mind to it.

[Say that isn't so, Tarrlok.]

You felt welcome by one person who did not bother to do her research. How representative is that?

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[disfavored]

You assume I'm that desperate. This is my only home now. I'd rather that things didn't end up like they did back in my world.

And no, not here. I meant when I was a boy. My memories of my time as a student were fond and that's more than I can say for most things. Either way, I intend to have a new start here, and being quarantined to certain jobs and watched over like I'm some sort of ticking time bomb isn't part of it. If I'm too dangerous for this job, then I'm too dangerous to exist, period, and if that's how you feel I welcome you to come and deal with it. Otherwise, I ask that you leave me be.

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[demon_brat]

Death is not lasting, here, or I might almost be tempted to break my promise in this situation.

Which means 'leaving you be' is not an option. I shall be there. And watching.

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[disfavored]

I knew there was no such thing as second chances. [Said more to himself than anyone else.]

If you think I hadn't spent my entire life thinking about what I may or may not be too dangerous for, then you're wrong. The only reason I'm letting myself do any of this is because the people I hurt the most were the ones who convinced me that I should try again. Watch me if you like, but if I end up being too dangerous after all, no need to worry, I'll take myself out of the equation. I've done it before.

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[demon_brat]

[Okay, now, this? This strikes home. Deeply. Damian's eyes widen ever so slightly, for a moment, but his expression doesn't change.]

[His shoulders, however, slump a little.]

Not in the eyes of some, there is not.

[Lips pursed, his voice is slightly less forceful than up to now.]

But thinking about it did not stop you from making those wrong choices, did it? Perhaps you are missing something still, that makes the difference.

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[disfavored]

It was because I was so intent on keeping myself away from any situation where I might be dangerous that I made those choices. I pushed everyone away to keep them safe, but I now firmly believe that if I had not removed every human element from my life out of fear that I'd hurt them, I would never have hurt the people I did in the first place.

I made a mistake, and I kept on making that mistake for years because I never let anyone close enough to help me. You're young, and I don't expect you to understand, I only realized it very recently myself. But that's what it is.

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[demon_brat]

You are significantly underestimating what I can understand.

[Dry. (There are things that he doesn't, but this? Oh, he understands way too well.) Also, now he has calmed down somewhat, a pattern emerges to his mind's eye, in this conversation.]

Another thing that it is - and you should think over this - is that all the reasons for your doing this? Are about you. You need the chance, you felt safest at school, you are going to fight for the position, you have skills, you made mistakes, you couldn't find anything else.

You probably think you have changed. But you might have to work harder on it.

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[disfavored]

We were talking about my suitability, so yes, most of my answers were about me. The reason I was offered the position in the first place was because I felt that education was important and worth investing in. It was a place I found welcoming, and I think many people here need a welcoming place.

I may be underestimating what you can understand, but you don't know me, even if you've known people who you think are similar to me. I've paid for my wrongdoings and have made peace with those I wronged. That's all I can say.

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[demon_brat]

You are entirely missing the point. But I suppose that is to be expected.

[Nobody listens to a child, do they.]

[And, no, Damian doesn't know 'people' who are similar. Only himself.]

Was that because you deserved that peace, or because they were people who would rather give it to you rather than wrong you back?

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[disfavored]

I'll admit that some truces were reluctant, but family issues are complicated.

Still, the person who was most affected by my actions, at least, was very insistent that I get back outside and start being part of society again even though I had resigned myself to the life of a recluse.

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[demon_brat]

Family issues are always complicated.

[Pause. Quietly.]

There seems to be a balance between being a recluse and living in constant temptation and risk. For others.

Consider whose interest is the most important in what you do, Tarrlok. If it is yours, then you probably have not changed as much as you wish to think.

[For a change, this is not hypocritical of Damian. The closest he gets to selfish in what he does is the insistence that he is not a meta, because that would mean he would have to give up the only family he has left. Everything else is for others. Simple as that.]

[Oh, well, maybe the assistance with the running of Wayne Enterprises in Gotham might be regarded as self interest. But he did not volunteer for that until it became clear that nobody else could manage it.]

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[disfavored]

Believe me, I've given thought to everything you said before. I promise you, I'm not being reckless with this.

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[demon_brat]

It is not you who I would call reckless.

[It's Ava. Tarrlok, more like selfish.]

And it is not reckless that I would call you.

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[disfavored]

I'm not particularly interested in what you'd call me, I'm afraid.

Are we done here?

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[demon_brat]

You said that you were not. Practically denying something you thought I had called you.

[Shrug.]

Here, perhaps. While there are children in danger, done, no.

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[disfavored]

If I can't convince you that children aren't in danger, then I can't stop you. Do what you like.

[If this was one of the Lanterns talking, Tarrlok would be quite a bit more confrontational, but he doesn't really feel like threatening a child.]